Then and Now: Part I

It's funny to me that this night, five years ago, I was sitting in my mom's room, blogging, deeply and introspectively. (Or so I would have claimed at the time, now we'll just call it "overdramatically.") I was thinking about marriage and specifically, changing my name, and not being "Allison Knutson" any more.

Five years later I have to say...what a crock. Admittedly, it was weird, signing Allison Belisle for the first few years. A couple of times I forgot. But then, like so many times in my life, I was fixated on something so superficial that, at the time, I thought wonderfully represented the shift my life was about to make.

Uhhh....yeah. Too much emphasis on the wedding...not enough on marriage. But then, it was the day before my wedding and I didn't know jack about being married.

I still don't, to be really honest. What I do know is that I know a bit more about learning to live with someone, day in and day out, trying to accept them for who they are, even the parts that drive you a little bonkers, and the power that laughter has to help pull us out of the day to day rut we often find ourselves in.

We've laughed a lot the last year. I love the fact that over the years we've developed the talent to say exactly the sort of thing that will crack the other person up...even at the most inopportune moments. Usually when I'm being overdramatic. Or when he's watching a very suspenseful submarine movie. But I love that. Even if every romantic movie I watch gets 'ruined' and every bad mood/rant I go on gets interrupted. I love that Josh has the ability to make me laugh, no matter what's going on. It's great. It's one of the greatest things about marriage.

If I could go back five years in time to this night, I probably wouldn't actually say anything to the Allison sitting at her mom's computer, blogging. I'd just laugh at her. A lot.

Yeah...that probably wouldn't go over well either. *grin* But that was then, and this is now.

Here's to a future full of "now."

Love you J.
Happy Anniversary Eve.

Always,
Allie